Bhat was under attack for his inaction in the complaints against comic Utsav Chakraborty during themovement in October 2018.
Last month, comedy group AIB announced that Bhat will step down from the post of CEO and the company’schannel is ‘dead for the foreseeable future’.
In a series ofvideos shared on Saturday, the comedian said he sometimes gets ‘super worried’ thinking that his state of ‘paralysis is permanent’.
‘After everything that happened in October, I’m mentally checked out. I feel almost paralysed and unable to participate socially, online or even offline. A big part of my self worth growing up as someone who looked like me became my work.
‘For most of my adult I life I worked at a company that I was trying to build. Letting the office go, all the people who worked with us, having to say good bye to that took a toll on me mentally and physically. Which finally came to a headway around the end of last year,’ he said.
The comedian said doctors diagnosed him with clinical depression and told him to ‘consider doing something about it.’
‘A lot of you have been asking fair questions- why don’t you move on, why don’t you rebuild, but for some reason, I have just watched something that I have worked for last part of my adult life come crashing down. I have just been staring at the rubble going ‘what now?’
‘I don’t think I’ve been strong enough to be able to pick myself. It’s been a few months since the doctor told me to start medication. I honestly sometimes get super worried that this state of paralysis is permanent. I sometimes feel I might never get back to being who I was or operating to my potential.’
Bhat thanked those who wrote supportive messages on his worst days, which were immensely helpful.
‘It’s nice to know there are still people out there who are rooting for us and me. I am still clueless about any answers to questions like when will I be back and doing what. I don’t know. I’m still feeling extremely paralysed to even put out this message because in my head no one wants to work with a depressed comedian and that’s an oxymoron.
‘But at some point I just got to get up and start fixing this stuff. I owed you guys a thank you. That’s all for now,’ he concluded.
Bhat, who was one of the judges in the first season of Amazon Prime Video’s ‘Comicstaan’, is not returning for the upcoming second run.
2018: The Year When #MeToo Shook India
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2018: The Year Of #MeToo In India
2018 saw the rise of the #MeToo movement in India. Inspired by a global campaign against sexual harassment and assault, women across the spectrum opened up and shared their stories about abuse by men in positions of power. And it began in October with actress Tanushree Dutta accusing actor Nana Patekar of sexual harassment while shooting for the 2008 film ‘Horn Ok Please’.
What followed was a series of posts by other women who shared their experiences with the world. From actors, film directors to advertising top guns, artists and writers and politicians, women professionals called out obnoxious behaviour at the workplace. From unwanted attention in the office to sexual innuendos on the film set, there were many kinds of allegations that surfaced.
While some of these are still struggling in the industry amidst the allegations, some succeeded in getting a clean chit from authorities. Recently, rumours surfaced that Patekar has been given a clean chit. However, the ‘Aashiq Banaya Aapne’ actress quashed the rumours. However, director Vikas Bahl, who was one of the prime accusees, has been set free from all charges against him. The internal complaints committee of Reliance Entertainment, today, set the ‘Queen’ director free, who was accused by an employee of Phantom films under the #MeToo movement.
(In Pic: From top left, Nana Patekar, Aditi Mittal, Subhash Ghai, Anirban Das Blah. From bottom left, Alok Nath, Sajid Khan, Jatin Das, Vikas Bahl)